Monday, August 28, 2006
Hey guys, this is gonna be one emo entry, unlike previous ones with all the jokes.. so brace yourselves =). Was watching the colour box halfway when reality suddenly hit me hard. Its just 11 days away before I go overseas indefinitely for a 2 year holiday. Well with the complete package of sweaty half-naked men and “special” treatment if you ask for it. And TRUST me. Its nothing to be envious about, so girls, thank God you don’t have to do it.
People have asked me, “are you prepared to go in?” , “so how?” , “ have you done what you have yet to do?”. Frankly speaking, I’ve yet to let go of all my friends. I’ve yet to go to Sentosa and have a whole lot of fun. I’ve yet to tell the people I love how much I love and gonna miss them. I’ve yet to encourage the people under me to grow and not fall back when I’m gone. I’ve yet to emotionally position myself to enjoy confinement.
Amidst all these, just felt the Holy Spirit place in me a passage about Abraham, where he had to leave ALL areas of his life, to fulfill the purpose of God in his life.
Genesis 12
Promises to Abram
1 Now the LORD had said to Abram:
“Get out of your country,
From your family
And from your father’s house,
To a land that I will show you.
2 I will make you a great nation;
I will bless you
And make your name great;
And you shall be a blessing.
3 I will bless those who bless you,
And I will curse him who curses you;
And in you all the families of the earth shall be blessed.”
4 So Abram departed as the LORD had spoken to him, and Lot went with him. And Abram was seventy-five years old when he departed from Haran.
Really feel myself placed in his shoes, and Abraham willingly obeyed the Lord. However, he took Lot with him and hence, did not experience the fullness of God’s blessing upon his life UNTIL he finally left Lot in Gen 13. Yes, reluctant as I am to leave my family, the church, n309, and everyone in my life. BUT yet if I want to see the fullness of God’s blessings in the purpose He has for me, then of course, I have to do it. Complete letting go. Nobody said it was easy, Abraham took awhile to let Lot go.. Obviously he loved Lot a lot. (no pun intended) I guess its something that I must do I guess. =)
Though its not as if I’m furthering my studies overseas for a few years, but I feel that at this threshold of another era of my life. Its like another goodbye to the past 20 years of my life. And hello to adulthood.
People have asked me, “are you prepared to go in?” , “so how?” , “ have you done what you have yet to do?”. Frankly speaking, I’ve yet to let go of all my friends. I’ve yet to go to Sentosa and have a whole lot of fun. I’ve yet to tell the people I love how much I love and gonna miss them. I’ve yet to encourage the people under me to grow and not fall back when I’m gone. I’ve yet to emotionally position myself to enjoy confinement.
Amidst all these, just felt the Holy Spirit place in me a passage about Abraham, where he had to leave ALL areas of his life, to fulfill the purpose of God in his life.
Genesis 12
Promises to Abram
1 Now the LORD had said to Abram:
“Get out of your country,
From your family
And from your father’s house,
To a land that I will show you.
2 I will make you a great nation;
I will bless you
And make your name great;
And you shall be a blessing.
3 I will bless those who bless you,
And I will curse him who curses you;
And in you all the families of the earth shall be blessed.”
4 So Abram departed as the LORD had spoken to him, and Lot went with him. And Abram was seventy-five years old when he departed from Haran.
Really feel myself placed in his shoes, and Abraham willingly obeyed the Lord. However, he took Lot with him and hence, did not experience the fullness of God’s blessing upon his life UNTIL he finally left Lot in Gen 13. Yes, reluctant as I am to leave my family, the church, n309, and everyone in my life. BUT yet if I want to see the fullness of God’s blessings in the purpose He has for me, then of course, I have to do it. Complete letting go. Nobody said it was easy, Abraham took awhile to let Lot go.. Obviously he loved Lot a lot. (no pun intended) I guess its something that I must do I guess. =)
Though its not as if I’m furthering my studies overseas for a few years, but I feel that at this threshold of another era of my life. Its like another goodbye to the past 20 years of my life. And hello to adulthood.
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